Frustrated.

When I received my calling as first counsellor in the Elder's Quorum, I was excited for the opportunity to serve. I'd been home from PA for a year and had been struggling for ways to serve like I did back in the mission field. Being in a position of leadership was something I really needed.

All of that is still true now, 10 months later, but I'm growing more and more frustrated with the guys in the ward every week. Is it really that hard to round up 5 of the 60 some-odd elders we have every week to clean up the building? I have a pretty tough time that only two of them are available Saturday morning to help with a service project for which we had 20 slots on a sign-up sheet.

What the heck is wrong? I can't help but think there's something wrong with our leadership. Maybe if we were having a hard time getting a couple guys to contribute it would be different, but all of them? Am I a bad motivator? Did I not sell it to them well enough? Or do they just plain not care?

When my mission president was going home (the second time) he pushed really hard for us to always be the "core" of whatever ward or branch we were in, the guys that could be counted on for anything. I'm beginning to understand why he wanted that for me. There is so much work to be done, and that core just isn't big enough.

I guess I need to be a better leader. I'm sure there are plenty of guys willing and able to help if they have the proper leadership to help them do it.