FINE. DANG.

I received enough complaints about my "Where I need to be" junk that I feel the need to expound on it a bit more.

I know that I said, "is it possible that God would keep me from getting married," but I was more throwing it out there than saying that I believe it. I don't really believe that God would sabotage me to keep me somewhere. Maybe what I wrote put too much emphasis on that and not enough emphasis on the fact that we're all given specific talents and we're placed in situations where we can use them to benefit others. I guess I really wanted to focus on doing everything I can to serve people wherever I am instead of focusing on getting out of wherever I am.

But at the same time, I'm not conceding that where I am is completely in my power. I still think it's possible--not definite, but possible--that part of the reason I'm still where I am is because God knows I'm simply not ready to move on.

I will admit that I'm not exactly doing anything to try to move on, which is more a factor than anything else, I'm sure. I saw a movie the other night that made me realize one of the reasons I hate dating. "Dan in Real Life" is that movie where that guy from The Office tries to be serious, and let me say that by the end of the movie I'd totally forgotten that he's on The Office. He was good. Anyway, the premise of the movie is he meets this girl, and essentially he starts acting like a moron because of it. It served to remind me that I'm exactly like that. I love how smart and rational and selfless I am when I'm not chasing after a girl, but the second I fall for someone, I get so stupid and selfish and retarded that everyone around me suffers. So that's yet another reason why I don't date: I'm not mature enough to handle everything that comes with it. And I'm not going anywhere until I get past that.